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POETRY

by Gemini





I called you on the phone today
put my cards on the table....come what may
feeling brave enough to tell you what is true
but then I hear that voice and know she's there with you
I quickly hide the hurt and say "I just called to say hi"
fight not to punch the wall cuz I know that's a fucking lie
I want to yell and scream and shake you until you really see
but that won't do any good - so fuck this, fuck you and most of all fuck me!



I've cried the tears
I've felt the pain
I've looked for escape
it's all been in vain
no more talking
no more pretending
no more nothing
this is where it's ending
took a long look at myself
casually questioned my mental health
have a smoke....take a toke
fuck why not - my life's a joke
how did I get here
wrapped up in fear
strong enough to know
too scared to let you go
the end has come - it's finally time
to take back this life and make it mine

The Past


Innocence of the past
haunting you
calling and taunting you
Memories flooding my mind
regrets drowning my soul
Wondering what might have been
you can't go back
can't change anything
reality is the present
future is your life


Masks of Deception

Masks of deception
fooling people
outwardly - hard, touch, in control
inside though
there is only a frightened lonely child
cracing the love and attention
she badly needs
wanting it - but pushing it away
afraid of being vilnerable...
open to getting hurt
and being alone again
The wall must stay in place
Crying for the child within
who's been hurt too often
to be yound and carefree
Masks of deception are her security


Untitled

Sitting alone in the darkness
thinking of life's twisted paths
walking a tightrope
never knowing if you'll make it without falling
falling into the darkness....
keeping us weak - keeping us alone
Finding the strength
deep within
crawling...stumbling...reaching
for the light that we can see
but can't quite reach
Finally making it there
You've won a small battle
but not the war of life



In the Name of Love

boundries crossed
tears cried
emotions felt
words said
walls punched
glass shattered
sleep forgone
soul died
promises broken
lies told
innocence lost
dreams trampled
smiles forgotten
self fooled


Never See

In the darkness of my mind
trying to get to better times
trying to fight all I know
trying to make what isn't so
putting on a smiling face
as I quietly fall from grace
the pain deep within me
is something you'll never see




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